So to start I know this is the whole new year new me thing is very overdone but I’m jumping on the band wagon to talk about it from my perspective.
Let’s talk about 2017 to get that out of the way. 2017 had a lot of ups and downs, there were points where I was very down in the dumps and points where I was on top of the world. Starting out I was in a job that stressed me out each and every day. I would get anxiety in the morning before leaving and would sometimes cry on the way home. I wasn’t the only one feeling like that but that is all for another post. I hated the person I was and there were a lot of things I wished that I could change about myself. As the year progressed there were a lot of times that seemed like things weren’t going to get better. I was stressing out about everything thrown my way. It was like bad things were happening one after the other. It was a really low point of my life.
Then things seemed to turn around. I got a new job and right away a lot of stress and anxiety was lifted. I was already happier and people around me were noticing it. This change in mood seemed to change a lot and life started to get better. It was strange to think that one small change made such a huge difference in everything. I came out of my shell a little more and started talking to people which isn’t something I would have done before. I had a little more confidence. Over the year there have been a lot of things I am happy to say that I have done. I’ve escaped from escape rooms, made new friends, spent time with friends and family, visited my family that I haven’t seen in a while, gone to Cuba and just gone on some awesome adventures. Don’t get me wrong there are still times when I’m down even since getting the new job. There are times when I still hate myself but that is something I am working on. I can’t say that 2017 was good or bad because it was a mixture of both.
Now for 2018 and what I hope the new year brings. First I want to feel better about myself and that involves taking care of myself. I am going to be eating healthier in the new year, this is something I started a little at the end of 2017. I’m hoping to lose some weight but I want to do it in a healthy way. I might even track my progress here, who knows. I have also been getting into bullet journaling and that is something I want to keep up. It keeps me organized and being organized helps with my mental state. One of the biggest things I want from the new year is to find a way to alleviate the amount of anxiety I have. I’m not sure how I’m going to go about doing this but it’s a work in progress. Most of all though I want to love myself. I’m on a path to liking myself and it’s a hard journey but I want to get there. I want to see myself how my friends see me. 2018 is the year of big changes for me and hopefully it’s the year of self love.
Whether you make resolutions or not it’s a new year and there are new things to try each and every day. Make the most out of each one.